Below is a draft opening for my novella, “Love’s Ragged Claws.” Feedback welcome.
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It was dark in the small chamber behind the purple curtain. So dark Gabriel could barely see. So small he could barely kneel. The sound of wood sliding. A small sliding door. A tap of finality as the sliding door hit its mark. A dim light came through cross-shaped holes in the wooden panel, face-level, that remained before him.
“Bless me, Father, for I have sinned,” Gabriel said.
“God forgives all who repent sincerely. When was your last confession?”
A pause.
“Fifty years ago.”
A muffled aspiration could be heard from Father Angelo’s side of the screen – a sigh both of compassion for one so long lost and of relief for the prodigal returned. As Father Angelo felt this pleasant mixture of wholesome feelings in his heart and head, his stomach growled. How many times had he tried to put all worldly thoughts behind him to focus on the Lord’s work? And yet he was late for his lunch, and a little part of him, a sinful part, was demoralized at the thought of the day’s final confession dragging on.
“That’s a long absence from grace, my son. But your reconciliation is near. The Lord cares not how many the sins but only how true the penance. Fifty years of sins can be washed away in a day. Now recount your sins, my son, no matter how many. Begin at the beginning, and do not rush through, but reflect as you go.”
“But, Father,” said Gabriel. “I only have three sins.”
* * *
Eva gazed out from her cabin window in Colorado. She could see a few rooftops of the town, and in the distance, the forest, thick with blue spruce and bristlecone pines, rising vertically up to the snow-capped peaks.
Rat-a-tap-tap-tap.
Funny how she knew Gabriel’s knock, how deeply embedded it was in the rings of her memory. She opened the door, and there he was, smiling, a little older than the last time she had seen him, but still willowy tall with arms thrown about, a patch of thick white hair on his head. Still smiling the same smile.
“Hallo, love,” he said, tossing off his knit hat. Still a spring in his step, she thought.
“How are you feeling, Eva?”
“Good,” she said, and she let him hug her.
“More or less,” she added.
That’s my old Eva, Gabriel thought. In that one phrase, he recognized layers of her psyche at work. She had been a dental lab technician, crafting the tiniest contours of the human tooth, each one unique, in simulacrum. Good at it, too, but crippled by perfectionism. She could never finish anything for fear it would not be good enough. Never be too hopeful. To be hopeful is to be crushed when perfection is missed. She felt good in his presence; he knew that. And through the lens of that goodness he could see all the folds her beauty. Her features themselves, well, all her life she had been known for plainness of features. And look at her now. Still the round boyish face, the pixie haircut, but with more gray. Yet she knew how deeply Gabriel saw in her plainness a pristine beauty. And she loved it. But no, it raised expectations to an insufferable level. She must moderate expectations to avoid the crushing moment of their falling short.
“More or less,” she repeated, and they held each other’s gaze for one second more, a second in which each recognized the other’s penetration, saw their hidden graces and flaws exposed, the little psychological mechanisms that they could not control and that seemed so serious at other times, reduced to mere curiosities when unmasked by trusted eyes.
“Should we go into Boulder?” asked Gabriel.
“Yes, let’s,” said Eva, and down they went through the winding canyons.
x x x
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More…. More….. More….
You are so talented.
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Hahaha. Thanks. I’ll email you 50 pages if you like. But don’t feel obligated 🙂
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Please…. Gary, I truly mean it. The opening has me nailed.
Thanks
Charlie
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You do something really neat in that longish paragraph near the bottom. Narrative consciousness seems to float back and forth between Gabriel and Eva. Seamlessly, flawlessly, spectacularly. I’ve read it 5-6 times trying to deconstruct the threads. But it’s like video with dissolves between frames that are difficult to separate, even in slow motion. Very impressive. Can’t wait to find out more about the three sins. Hope you post when you finish.
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If he’s smart, he’ll make you buy the book to find out 🙂
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On the other hand – me beings such a good reader and all 🙂 – he might just want to write it off as a ‘review’ copy.
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That should be “being” not “beings.” 😦
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Hi Steve and Oopsjohn. The book probably won’t be out till the end of the year. Oopsjohn (or Steve), if you want a pdf of the current 50-page draft (complete in itself, though it might be extended later), query drggautier@gmail.com.
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Yes, oopsjohn, intersubjectivity is part of the thing 🙂
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Me loves good syntax.
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Hey Charlie. I can’t post images in this box, but google “it’s a thesaurus meme” to see how cave people had similar linguistic concerns 🙂
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